Summer job started yesterday.
I'm not very good at talking to people and I'm a terrible communicator.

I had to deliver lunch today at a nursing home office, but I was worried because I can't talk very well.
A boy a year older than me who started working part-time with me helped me out when I was having trouble talking.

I didn't like summer, but the sunshine was still there whether I was in trouble or having fun.
I had a little fun taking a walk outside, even though it was basically silent.

I worry a lot, but the sun is so reassuring and inclusive that it makes it all seem silly.


-sunlight-

風で揺らめく森の木の葉。
朝日で輝く木々がダンダンとシルエットになっていくのは見ていて面白い。

四季でも変わっていくから、同じ景色は二度とないから一期一会みたいでワクワクしちゃうよね。

中にいても自然を感じられるから窓は好き。
でも、日焼けも暑いのも嫌だから部屋が好き。
だから窓越しに見える景色は最高の額縁だと思う。

-窓越しに見えるのは-

I love the forest I can see from my window.

I think it is wonderful that it changes with the seasons.
It's interesting because not a second goes by without the same scenery.

- What you see through the window -

へその緒しか思いつかない。
恋人とか好きな人とかより、家族として、大好きな大切な人って感じの運命のご縁を感じてしまうな。

でも、運命や恋愛＝赤い糸って言う先入観的思考を持ってしまってる自分が悔しくてしかたない。
だから考えてみた。 what is 赤い糸。think about it....
なんで赤だけ?

紫も好きだし、黄色も好き、水色も好きだし、緑も好き。

だから、赤を他の色とミサンガでも作ったら綺麗だろうなって。

あんまり、今までの思考と方向性は変わってないけど。赤い糸は「共存」だとおもう。

赤は赤で存在するけど。絡み合ったら赤だけ以上のもっと素敵な色彩になるとおもうから。


-赤い糸-

Around the time I was going to junior high school.
I had lived with my favorite childhood best friend for just the first two months of junior high school.

That experience was the best time of my life.

We would wake up in the morning, have breakfast, and then we would go to school together.
Before we get to school, we talk about what kind of dreams we had, how troublesome today's physical education is, and who we like.

Two months passed and my best friend moved away for her parents' reasons.

I wish we had graduated middle school together.


- Soulmate -